Well, lately I've been blogging about this girl I'm kinda feeling. I don't know whether I actually have feelings for her because I like her for swho she is or just the idea that she represents. For me, she represents passion and living in the moment which is a good and bad thing. It's good because I've been trying to break out of my shell and not prohibit myself. Yet, at the same time these feelings could be temporary and based solely on lust and my desire to simply be free of my inhibitions. And as much as this is about her and me, it's about "the boyfriend." I see that in order to keep him around, I can't keep her around. The longer I keep her around the more likely I am to lose him. So I gotta let one go. I know who to choose, but I wonder if either of them are going to be of any importance later. *shrugs*